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In case you were wondering why the pictures in the previous post have been watermarked with “Beauty-fullJourney”, I’d like to tell you all that this is the name of my other blog, which has stuff on makeup, beauty etc!

So do visit and follow me for all things beautiful in my life 🙂

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Enjoy 🙂

Its here : The Casual Vacancy

I’m absolutely elated right now. I have it in my hands… The Casual Vacancy by J.K.Rowling.

Yippee JJ

J.K.Rowling does that to all of us, doesn’t she? J

By the way, I’m a big big big Harry Potter and J.K.Rowling fan and so had been waiting for this book since the time it was announced.

Read this post HEREfor seeing the HP fan inside me. (yes, that too is from my blog)

I’d preordered it from Flipkart( u can also buy it from flipkart here)and received it just now, 10min back.

Posting some random pictures for you guys.

Enjoy J

P.S. sooo excited for reading it 🙂

The difference between being alone and being lonely.

I have the most beautiful people in my life, all around me. They love me immensely. And so do I. Such a loving and caring family. Wonderful friends. An extremely loving special person.

I’m doing fairly well in college.

I’m very happy with my entire makeup haven (heaven?). I absolutely love writing for my new makeup blog (though extremely slow and hesitant in posting).

Yet, I have tears in my eyes. There is a weird hollow feeling inside me, which isn’t even letting me smile.

Am I being greedy? I was never the one to be so greedy and ask for more than all this from God.

Then what?

What is really going on with me?

I feel lonely. Terribly lonely. Even when I am not alone at all!

This the huge difference between being lonely and being alone. I’m nowhere near being alone. Have so many people around me. I don’t even have the time to be idle. So much work to do. But still there is a loneliness inside, which is eating me, more so every day. Just making me busy with work also doesn’t help. I’ve literally buried myself with work, all taken up and started by moi! To avoid things, to avoid thinking about them, to avoid thinking about my own self and where my life is heading if I carry on like this!

I somehow feel absolutely fed up of pleasing everybody, all the time. This is an entirely different issue though. That would take up an entire post or two by itself.

I feel like running away from everything. And everyone!

I am not the kind of person who keeps cribbing about everything. I absolutely loathe such people who do that. I love to smile, to laugh, to enjoy myself, to love, to live life!! Then, why am I being such a killjoy right now. And that too toward my own life! I don’t understand. Serious introspection is needed here. Sigh.

Maybe a good big break from everything might help. I’m hoping it will.

Or rather, it SHOULD! Since nothing else is working this time. Have tried my favourite stuff already-  food, makeup,TV!

Nope, no effect. Zilch.

So, now just cutting myself from things is going to be the next big step.

At least for a week. What say?

I’ll use minimum Internet and phone (as much as is possible).

I’ll wind up work so I don’t have the feeling that I have tons of work pending. And I will take out time for myself, for introspection. Where exactly am I wrong and what is making me feel so hollow.

And yes no doing anything for pleasing others this week.

I won’t take a break from writing definitely. But I wouldn’t post anything (as no internet, na.. dumb!).

So let’s do it!

P.S. maybe I’m just PMSing too much ?? or the horrible rains here that are making me gloomy.:(

P.P.S image taken from google.

P.P.P.S. my thoughts are so terribly muddled up, aren’t they?

Comfort food.

We all face those weird moments when everything around us seems totally gloomy. We don’t feel like smiling because the heart is sad and doesn’t that hurt terribly?

This sure does happen to me a lot and that’s when my heart craves for small treats.

This post isn’t about comfort ‘food’ literally, but about my version which includes things or people or stuff I do which can make me feel better when I’m all down and out.

So, here’s the list….

1)      Food – ofcourse! 😉

For me it includes mainly chocolates and ice-creams! These two things can cheer me up big time! And stuff like chicken tikka, manchurian, chop suey, pasta, chaat ….. yummm :p heaven!

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2)      Coffee & iced tea – these two are MAJOR stress bursters for me! I have a bad addiction to iced tea !!!

3)      Reading / writing – why do you think I’m writing right now, after quite a long time!!

Aah! How writing calms me down….  I have no words for the feeling of elation I get after filling sheet after sheet 🙂 it just takes out all the excess energy and makes me feel relaxed.

4)      Shopping – even window shopping can do the trick 😛

Just looking at those beautiful clothes, accessories makes my heart smile!

5)      Make-up – yes you read it right!!

Those who know me, can tell I don’t use a lot of makeup but yet I love it 🙂

Talking or reading makes me so… I don’t know… I kind of enter a trance just thinking about what all I want to buy. It might just be a present craze of mine but I’m loving it ❤

Buying cute makeup products excites me like a small child with a new toy !! just this month I’ve bought 4-5 new stuff and already have a wishlist which is growing by the day.

( and I’m soon starting a blog dedicated to my makeup musings … teehee 😛 have already created a new account )

6)      A loonggg bath – I’m sure a good long bath calms down most people after a tiring day, but for me I love it even at the start of the day. I just engulf myself in a lot of fragrances and take a long bath. It makes me feel all happy-happy the whole day 🙂

7)      Talking to someone close. ❤

8)      Crying – crying seriously isn’t a bad thing. Alongwith your tears, all the excess energy too runs down.

Do you know why all these things make me feel good? The only reason I can come up with safely is that they provide distraction! Yes that’s all these ‘comfort food’ are capable of.  They wash off all the anxiety bringing me down from the hyperactive state I am in.

Of course the problem is still there, and is still unsolved. But I’m definitely in a much better state mentally to think and to sort out my life.  

 P.S. writing this post definitely helped me solve my current dilemma!

Kuch aur naye pal aur vahi purana ehsaas.

Vo pal kuch naya tha jab tumhe apni duniya banaya,

Choti choti baaton se sapnon ka ghar banana,

Tumhare haath lagane par dil ka tham jana,

Tumse milne ke intezaar me koi dhun gungunana

Aur vo teen shabd sunke khushi se jhoom jana

Vo pal bhi naya tha jab tumhe khone ke darr ne humein samaya,

Par vo ehsaas to purana tha jab aansu chaha kar bhi na tham sake.

 

Vo pal kuch naya tha jab tumhare saath me hi khushi thi,

Tumhare ehsaas se har pal meetha tha

Aur tumhare bina har haseen pal bhi pheeka

Tumhari baton pe sharmaana bhi naya tha

Aur sharmaa ke vo haath pakadna bhi,

Vo pal bhi kuch naya tha jab tumse dur jaane ke gam ne humein sataya,

Par vo ehsaas to purana tha jab aansu chaha kar bhi na tham sake.

Vo pal kuch naya tha jab zindagi ke in palon me khushiyan to bahut thi,

Par inhe bhoolne me hi achaai thi,

Vo pal kuch naya tha jab khushiyan daaman me sama na paayi,

Par gam ne aa kar fir jholi khali kar dee,

In sab naye palon me, vahi purana ehsaas…

Jab aansun chaha kar bhi na tham sake.

P.S. similar to the last one, but on a different topic.

Kuch naye pal aur vahi purana ehsaas.

Vo pal kuch naya tha jab vo humein chod ke gayin,

Vo khaali ghar me unhe dhoondna,

Unki hansi ko yaad kar, vo chup chup ke rona,

Unki god me sar rakhne ke bahaanon ko yaad karna,

Sab kuch naya tha,

Par vo ehsaas to purana tha jab aansu chaha kar bhi na tham sake, 

Vo pal kuch naya tha jab gir ke uthne ki chaha to thi,

Par shayad uske lie takat nahi thi.

Vo pal kuch naya tha, jab zindagi tham si gayi thi,

Par aage badhna zaruri tha.

In sab naye palon me, vahi purana ehsaas…

Jab aansun chaha kar bhi na tham sake.

P.S. another one of my firsts… writing in hindi! Hope it’s good!

And yes, you guessed it right, I’m in a sad poetic mood.

Alone Time.

The time when she’s alone,

She thinks a lot,

But never aloud.

The time when she’s alone,

She often works a lot,

But always to avoid introspection.

The time when she’s alone,

She tries to solve her problems,

But is seldom able to come out of the denial.

The time when she’s alone,

She’s rarely optimistic,

But when she is, it isn’t for long.

The time when she’s alone,

All she craves for is someone to love her,

But she’s already built so many walls.

The time when she’s alone,

She always cries a lot,

But never shows her tears.

The time when she’s alone,

She tries to tell herself, “All is well”,

But her heart just laughs at her.

The time when she’s alone,

She truly fears being alone,

But that’s just how it is.

P.S.  tried my hand at poetry for the first time. Had started to write something cheerful and nice, but this is what came out straight from my heart, every word here has been felt first hand.

I am….

We all have so many thoughts all the time, so many diverse feelings. These feelings make up our entire being and that’s who we are. Since I’m going through a phase right now with infinite thoughts and feelings I want to know for myself who I am right now. So, here we go.

I am….

…. Feeling terribly irritated at fate , for not letting me complete my 9fasts this navratra season, and which I so badly wanted to.

…. absolutely elated at having so many people around me who love me and care for me immensely.

…. Thankful for having that one special someone who’s making my life so sweet these days.

…. In a terrible dilemma about my cell phone. It’ll be one complete year for me with my present phone, something new for me, and yet I’m still in love with it. Anddd yet, I still crave for a new one. Hah!

…. extremely miserable about not being able to keep up my reading as it used to be. The feeling of not being able to put down a book without finishing it is being terribly missed.

…. more optimistic than ever, about life in general.

…. desperate for learning crochet perfectly.

…. Getting much less of my usual heavy bouts of crying-over-no-significant-reason. And so many more of laughing hysterically. 😀

…. wishing I had more than 24hours everyday! So much to do, isn’t there?

…. Head-over-heels in love with ballerina flats. Aaah… how can anyone resist them!! ❤

I AM, on the whole, high on life!! 🙂

P.S. i love being so random and so crazy!! 😀